Stop Looking

Stop looking out there for it. Big deal right? Say it as many times as you wish and still nobody wants to listen, because they are busy looking for it. So what is everyone looking outside for.  What is it that if you found it out there, it will allow you such joy and happiness, that your life would change?  Is it the relationship that excites you so much, you tell your friends that you are in love, then sooner or later, you announce you hate their guts. Is it the job you are looking for, and when you get the job, you are excited then you realize that it is like all the rest. Is it the new diet, body you want, then when you have it, you have to maintain it. Is it calling yourself spiritual and then realizing we are spiritual so there is no such thing as specialness.  What is it, that you will change you out here?  Can anything change you out here? I am asking you to look at it.  So if out here can’t change you, and the conditioned world wants you to go on a journey and find it, then where is it?  Nothing out here can bring you freedom, because if you are looking for it, then when you find it, you will be attached to it. Then it becomes another possession.  Another thing. Do you see?

So can you stop looking for it? Stop searching for it? Stop wanting it? Can you simply stop and allow awareness? The story of Buddha is our collective story. He gave up his riches, family, traditions, rituals, home, and everything to find everything. Same with Jesus. Can you give up the world to find it? How do you give something up, if you are looking for it.  Stop thinking about it.  When you stop thinking about, what ever it is, it will be attracted to you.  There is nothing to think about that isn’t already happening.  We have been conditioned in school to create problems, and solve them.  We are lost in the problem, forgetting that we created it. Stop thinking about it and you will see it is already done. You exist in the all of all.  Found that out. Live that. Get to know that and you will realize the conditional was the problem. ” says Robert Taylor.


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Wrestling with yourself is geared toward discovering the bigger truth.  In order to discover you, you must ask the right questions. You are on a QUEST FOR FREEDOM from everything, and so by asking the right questions in your quest to be free, you open up to more possibilities.  The grail you are looking for is within you and within your grasp. But like all quests you have to face the dragon, which in this case is the mind. Everyone must do this. Jesus faced the same thing in the wilderness with the devil for 40 days and 40 nights. The wilderness is the mind and the devil is the crazy thinking.  When you can over come the crazy thinking you will be free. Buddha did this through renouncing the world and the conditions, same concept.  The dream is the crazy thinking (Devil).

In order to overcome the crazy thoughts you must inquire into them, question them, see them for what they are.  Your sword is in the doubt, the questioning, the seeing, the stillness, the witness, the observer, and there in lies the grail (gold).

So in order to do “the work”, you must stop searching, seeking, and be with it. Yes stop where you are and begin to doubt your story, your script, your scripted life, characters, and begin to see it for what it is.

What if everything you believe, judge, criticize, condemn, was wrong? Can you accept the opposite of what you are resisting? Can you see that both points of view are opposites of the same coin.  That they are both right and wrong.  Are you ready to stop and be with it all. It up to you.

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Losing My Religion To Discover My Spirit

There is division within us, each of us, we are here to end the division and know ourselves and that will lead to complete freedom.  That is true education.  We see that division  throughout the world in nationalities, most religions, race, traditions, politics, relationships, etc..  So how can one be free if they are attached to an idealogy, concept, or image. Because freedom is not attached to anything, it is free. We have been dialoguing about the minds concept of God. Can we be completely attentive to what is? Most religions are built on concepts, idea’s of what the mind believes is God. With those ideas of the mind, come rules, levels, good/bad, division, yet division can only be found in the thoughts. Where there is division there is conflict, war. So as more and more people are leaving religion, what is the search for, the search can only be that of freedom. Most religions box the idea of God, making the suggestion that God can be boxed in, that God is super human with good/bad people, that God punishes, that this God which created all in its image and likeness as we find in Genesis, “God created all and it was good”, then can exclude different groups. We then pick and we focus on the different passages in the bible to back up this concept of God, image of God, idea of God, which are based on the small intellect (mind based thinking) about the whole.

It would seem much more adventurous to look at the mind and religion. So what is religion?  Is religion just another concept of the mind? Lets take a look at the system of the mind. We have a person who is frightened by life, in fear of death, it knows on a physical level everything comes and goes and dies, yet on psychological level it is scared to die. What is scared to die? Just look at it. We seem scared of death in the west, even to look at it. We show violence on TV and movies and yet when soldiers die, we won’t look at it. We deny death constantly. So what is death? Strange to ask when I am speaking about losing my religion. Death is losing what we know, losing everything in an instant that we have spent a lifetime holding on too. So everything goes, including, being right, ideals, values, concepts, bias, judgements, and so on. So rather than being with what is, we escape. Rather than sitting with it,” Okay here I am, so and so has died, but I feel lonely, scared, sorrowful”, and so rather than being with that, we escape and form more turmoil. Rather than admit, okay I am attempting to escape this now, once you see your escaping, then you are able to be with it, be with what is happening, so you discover the lonely feeling, the loss, but what has been lost. This person which you have had in your life, but is the sorrow for them, or is it your own self pity for the loss. What are you going to do? Right. I am not suggesting death and dying shouldn’t be felt,  but I am simply asking you to be with the example. Death was coming, no surprise,  and yet you wanted to escape it. By not being with your own death, it is difficult not to bring that to another.  So they die, and now you have loss. You feel this loss. So you stay with the loss of the person and as you stay with the loss, which is loneliness, you go deeper and you realize that you never knew how to love, that you have never loved, that your love is selfish. That your love for this person, religion, idea of them, memories of them, was really what you were in love with. But that isn’t love, that is really death. You were living to die. You weren’t love, but because of their death, they were able to point you to love, real love, which is acceptance of now.

If you were to cut your arm, you would take action, but if you thought about cutting your arm then it would be different. Most religions sell you  on  ideas, traditions, rituals, and an idea about a afterlife. Give us money and when you die, after being saved  you will meet so and so in heaven. This existence is hell we told on earth, but when you leave all will be well. You will be well. So you feel good for a short time with the idea. Problem solved, no thinking, follow the mind made rules and live a good life, and all the stuff that comes, and then I can get a free ticket to heaven, God loves my group more and so we are chosen. My Jesus did this for me, my Jesus saved me, my Jesus died for me, and yet depending on what you believe the outcome changes, depends on your faith. So we are conditioned to not question the myth, stories, and ask deeper questions.  Of course you crave happiness, you crave love, because you might have been baptized as a sinner (mistake), and if that is your start in life then the rest is just trying to survive to get anywhere but here.  So you are born powerless.  So where do you go? Well you have to go where there is power. Because if they have power out there then they know the way. But you soon learn that they are powerless as well.  So you are unsatisfied and you leave the religion.  The search for who you are begins, now something knows you are free.  But the mind is so conditioned by powerlessness, gripped by fear, worry, confusion on trusting itself, trusting its life, that it searches for anything, like a lost soul. Lost in translation.  It continues with what it knows, to survive to keep alive, to work, struggle, live in pain, torture, because that is the images it was sold.  Images of a man crucified for you, and a group of people wrote texts on this man being the only sun (son) of God.  So what is left for you but to follow the only one.  Right? Lets be real now. So here you are lost and confused. Then some lonely traveler suggests that you have power, in you, but like a wounded child, you don’t want to look at it. See it. You start to think, which, got here in the first place, your thinking and not questioning, “How can I have power?” Deep inside you feel wounded, angry, abandoned, hopeless, and astray.  You are in life of pain and that is your comfort.  You have no idea of love,except the idea and images you were sold in stories, myths, TV, and film.  This conditional love.  You are even told Jesus loved unconditionally, forgave unconditionally. But if he was chosen then there is no hope for you.  God had plans for him and not you. You get mix messages, just like the mind. God is love and created all, but only created one son, what? It sounds like the mind.

So you are weary, tired, alone, and you are yearning for a connection to something bigger. There has to be something bigger here, this can’t be it. I have to save myself from myself. So maybe you come back to religion, or you turn to drugs, food, drama, chaos, fights, not because you really want too, but because your pain is your comfort, loving yourself makes no sense. It makes no sense because you feel abandoned by God. But God never left you.

Maybe you stay there, maybe you crumble, maybe at this point you don’t give a care anymore, it is up too you.  Or maybe as you read this, you discover that closing your eyes and breathing gives you comfort.  But the noise is so loud and you feel uncomfortable. But in a instant you felt a minute of peace.  So the next day, you come back and the discovery gets longer.  You continue on, and as you continue on you realize that the silence is the freedom. That Jesus, and Buddha were messengers for all of us. They taught us how to connect to the everything and make it personal.  It’s in you. That silence has no dogma, no rules, no levels, no greater than or less than, it simply is profound.  And when realized by you, then you can see the real message of Jesus, that he was speaking about the Christ in you, in me, and in everyone. That Buddha was speaking of the Buddha nature in you, and me, and everyone. Call it the witness, call it God-consciousness, call it what you will, the name isn’t important. The experience is. The experience is personal and sacred for each person.  Remember you are hu-man which means God-man. Jesus and Buddha just want you to discover the God, to understand the man. When you do, you will discover your spiritual nature.  Freedom.  True freedom.

When this happens, you will understand the universal laws of love, adjustment, cause, attraction, forgiveness, and celebrate in spiritual centers of Truth not fear. You will explore death and sit with it. Your death.  And when you discover what death is, as you live now, you will discover what Jesus meant when he said, “Heaven is at hand.”  You can’t see till you stop running from it. Stop running from death, and you will discover God. You are not a mistake, you are made good, all of you, not some of you, all of you.  “God created all and it was good.” So let this be an invitation to re-examine, to question, to look at it the escape, the story, that we are repeating to ourselves and propagating in the ourselves and the world.  You may go from religion to religion, but ask yourself, “What am I really scared of finding out?  What is this idea of death?  Is it real? Is it false?  What are my superstitions? What have I been taught about God?  What is running from now?” Celebrate your life, not run from it. Celebrate your spirit with a group who includes all, whether that group is religious or spiritual in nature.

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Are you a postal worker who likes to dress in drag? God doesn’t mind

It is wonderful news and in fact rather good news for many people to read, “Are you a postal worker who likes to dress in drag? God doesn’t mind.”  In a society were what you look like matters, in a society where God is judgmental, or even picks an chooses who are saints, sinners, mystics, and all the rest, from the experience of God it doesn’t matter.  When you are able to quiet the chatter, and the chatter in the mind can first only quiet when listened too without interacting with it.  As described in earlier blogs, simply listen without engaging in the noise. This is the practice.  Can you listen to everything without engagement? Engagement meaning, when you hear the noise in the mind is there something that is in disagreement, judgement, or critical and arguing with the mind, or beating yourself up because it is feeling guilty with the thoughts, actions, words, and behavior.

Everything is made from the unconditional presence (God).  Now if you are reading this blog for the first time, please reference and read the past six blogs to see where the messenger is coming from.  This message is about inclusiveness and in our society we speak about God and the bible outlawing certain groups.  When in fact we completely negate the fact that the messenger Jesus was simply talking about love. Love God, and love your neighbor as yourself.  So taking these two principles and using them and applying them in your life whether you live a “religious life”, “Spiritual life” , or negate everything by putting into a box of “well I am human and this is what we go through.”  However you choose is fine.  This blog is geared toward opening from a conditional existence to an unconditional existence.

So lets look at the first rule, love God.  So first we must begin to understand that God is omnipresent (Everywhere Present), meaning in all places at once.  So we are a wave in the ocean of all.  Everything is all, but we seem to be battling with the noise in the mind.  Absolute truth is all there is. It is the same today, yesterday, and tomorrow.  It is doesn’t change.  So the everything and everywhere can only be in a place where this exists, which is a place with no boundaries, conditions, expectations, needs, and where is this place? This is not a hard riddle. Be with it.  Silence is the only thing that has no boundaries, conditions, and it is here where God is.  From her all exists. Now the battle rests within this space.  Can you be in this presence of stillness more then live in the thoughts? That is the practice of presence.  This is difficult for people. That is why ignorance is not bliss, its still ignorance. Ignoring the Truth which is stillness, has not moved the planet one bit. A radical transformation can happen when you fully rest in this Truth.  Watch cats, dogs, and animals. When you enter the room if you are feeling anxious they feel it too. They begin to run around like you are.  They are picking up on your energy. TRUTH IS STILL. So can you give up the thoughts of what you think may be happening and rest in what actually is happening now?   Because if you can rest in this space, then you are experiencing love, REAL LOVE, unattached by an idea of itself.  So life from this space becomes the constant giver of love and a complete expression of love. Now from this space you are able to love yourself fully.  The only thing that is separating you from yourself is the thought that you are separate from you and others. It is only the thought remember that is making the suggestion. This experience which is not based on intellect.  Intellect or intel is used for defense. To gather information of what may be happening, to help in your defense, another words intellect is an add on which is related to a belief.

So if you believe or have faith in a God which isn’t unconditional in nature which we are told “God is Love, ” then your belief in yourself is one of defense, conflict, delusion, and division, which lead to insecurity, unworthiness, and being unloveable. Your life then becomes a conditioned battle ground for survival, lack, limitation, getting, wanting, manipulating, using your body in lustful ways to manipulate others, and all the gross ways in which we try to defend this myth. It is a myth that God will punish you, or is punishing, or created good people and bad, or sinners, or mistakes, or just one son to save the planet from itself.  These are myths.

The old testament is a testimony of a super human God, like a human being, then the new testament introduces a God of love through Jesus.  Who in turn was teaching his students (disciples) to heal people like he was doing and do more than him. He didn’t want to be worshipped and a deity. Many times we see that he wanted each of us to understand that we are God-consciousness.  That we are moving and breathing of God and in God now.  That this is heaven now.  Not out there, where war, poverty, limitation, politics, power, or greed have their way with society, but here. Here is the Truth and once you discover that you are complete in stillness, then you will be free. But it must be discovered by you.  This discovery once made will shift your life in a wonderful way. So you must rebel today from the world and revolt against what it is showing you and turn within.  You must turn to unconditional love, God, presence, what ever moves you to turn with in then use that. It isn’t about the words, because the words can get in the way, be misunderstood, miscommunicated, etc.. Turn within and listen. Simple.

So if you are gay, bi-sexual,  straight, dress in drag, wear nail polish as a man, what ever it is you are doing as the expression of God then you are loved, as long as it comes from understanding what love really is, and in that understanding you will understand the importance of then loving another as you love yourself.  With these two laws lived and applied in your life you will be adding to humanity as a love.  Then you will lose the nonsense of judgment of another and you will come to appreciate everyone and everything as you.  So let go of controlling another, belittling another, condemning another, and lets join the movement of REAL LOVE, and make this a REAL REVOLUTION. So dress in drag, and deliver your message of love to the world.  No matter what others think, remember it is a thought, thoughts are divisive in nature.

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Yesterday I was writing something and wrote “unison”, which means: complete agreement, harmonizing exactly.  When I sat with it a little more, uni= one and son= son.  One son, it reminded me of the stories of Buddha and Jesus, which is the story of our lives. To live in complete agreement with the laws of the universe and when we do that we become our true nature.  We become the son and daughter of unconditional presence.  The mantra may be I AM ONE and guess what? You are.  

Can you imagine? Sit with this for second. I AM ONE WITH THE UNIVERSAL ONE. Or as Christians say, “I AM THAT I AM.” That is how powerful you are. You are here to create from that. The way in which you connect to the source of everything is to quiet and listen.  Now when I say be quiet and listen, you think about talking and shutting up.  I am suggesting quieting your mind and listening to the silence which already is present.  In that silence exists all you need. In fact, when we use words to describe love, wealth, creativity, abundance, etc…we really are talking about the same energy which is unconditional presence.  Its all one life.  Each of us is that life expressing fully. It doesn’t seem that way because the mind is trying its best to convince us that there is separation. When really there is no separation.  The fragmented mind is convinced of this. So the only block between you and everything is silence.  With silence there is no conditions, barriers, blocks, problems, situations, and so what are we really waiting for? 

If everything is happening already and this life has infinite possibilities then what is wrong with silence.  It is here that we heal, it is here where true riches lie, it is here where magic is, and the absolute, and yet very few seem to want to go there.  Jesus never over threw the Romans but he left a lasting impression.  By getting still like nature we begin to understand how amazing we really are. Judgment is a thought. Love is silent, fun, joy filled, wisdom, and sometimes forceful. The lesson here is sometimes we should just be quiet and listen.  

When we can listen to the silence and maintain it for the day, then we can hear the truth, inspiration, and all the non sense goes away.  So can you turn away from the world? Can you be still?  Can you listen to the silence? If you can, you will be on the road like Jesus, Buddha, and many mystics.  

Live a life in complete agreement with nature. Sounds cool right?  

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Feeling Lost?

Most people feel lost in some way, whether that is in their career, relationships, money, health, somewhere or some part of their life they feel a sense of disconnection from the whole. That is expressed with, “I feel lost”, “I don’t know who I am”, or subtle forms, “Its my partners fault”, “My boss has it in for me,” or “Every relationship that I have been in turns out this way.”  This sense of feeling lost can only found in  one place, your thoughts.  You simply are never disconnected from the whole.  But you have to discover it for yourself. This is the part of life where no body is going to hold your hand and say it is going to be easy. This discovery is the same one Buddha, Jesus, and the mystic’s of our time have each made.  

Our society, educational systems, and corporations are built on the idea of problem solving.  We teach our young people to create problems, and solve them, so when things are going well in someone’s life they will find a problem and solve it.  People are not very comfortable with going with things, but they are very comfortable with creating problems, drama, and chaos.  And yet all we hear is love is all there is, or be still and know. Wonderful ideas that have been passed down from tribe to tribe, but not so comforting when you feel lost.  

This sense of being lost is found in the mind.  The mid is subtle in the way it pulls you in to a story and sometimes a very loud story about you and the other. But most of time the thoughts are feeding you ideas, concept, and beliefs you already know.  So how does one get past being lost. Here is a little hint.  You. You are the key to the whole darn thing. Not your partner, relationships, money, health, food, etc…sure all these things outside of you are showing you what you believe but none of them are going to change till you decided to look at yourself.  Why should anything change for you outside in order for you to be happy?   Once you see what you are looking at with new eyes, then what you see changes.

But how can you see it when you are clouded with thoughts? Awareness is a key component.  I will talk about awareness in my next blog.  

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You Don’t Own God

I had the chance to listen to three people debate on God.  One believed strongly that his God was this way, and the other believed his God saw things another way, and then another gentlemen threw in the mix, “I don’t believe in God,”  that is when I laughed.  It came like a flash, “you don’t own God”.”  God isn’t a belief, as you can see belief is separation and it doesn’t feel like it is about belief. It feels like most debates with people on God are based on ownership. With ownership comes rules. That is probably why most people are turned off by organized religion because it takes ownership on the omnipresence and declares their side is right.  That doesn’t feel like a loving presence. If there is one thing most mystic’s have uncovered is that God is love.  That feels like God loves everyone, which it feels like that was the point of Jesus and Buddha’s teachings. Love no matter what. If someone isn’t loving, then forgive and move on.  But you know God, this presence which is everywhere is right where you are and the person is as well.  Discovering this presence is a personal journey. The OUR FATHER is amazing when you can remove the religion from it.  Just meditate on the words OUR FATHER. It doesn’t suggest your father and not mine, it doesn’t say believe in me or else, it asks you to remember that we are one, to understand, bring wisdom to this OUR FATHER. If the word father rubs you wrong then put in LOVE.

TODAY MEDITATE ON: OUR FATHER, just allow the words to be and contemplate them in your heart.

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