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The Book of Light: The Heart Opening


Mother Mary Message

Dearest Children of Love, be collected in your hearts and still in the mind.  Be not afraid. Truth is the highest Light.  Truth is still, quiet, and has nothing to prove.  There is nothing to judge and nothing to concern yourself with. A child is quite a good listener and so you must be a quite a good listener.  A child is strong, powerful, and curious in love.  Do not feed them fear, and doubt. It is not real.  The idea and concept of love is not real either. LOVE IS ALL THERE IS. Love is beyond the body, mind, and can not be explained. But can be felt in the heart, a choice is made up in the mind, feel the heart. How does it resonate with the choice? Intuition is the hearts language. There is a difference, but feeling will help with this.  No child has every been judged. Truth is the highest light and light refers to a light body, when we find ourselves in the dark way we are heavy, burdened, confused, and it is always simple to come back, by feeling into the choice made.  Feel into and with it.  And keep choosing the light way. Be not afraid.  There is no such thing as loss. Continue to feel open and follow the shepherding of Love. Love is life and life is light and playful. If you choose to play in the darkness, that is okay too. It will bring you closer to Light.  Darkness, and Light are not meant to scare, but are one in the same. They are helping each other out.  Call on me when you need the love of the mother. Simply call on the divine mother for guidance from the heart. I love your hearts in Truth. I love when you speak Truth, love Truth. Trust in Truth. Stand in Truth.                                                                        o-COLM-TOIBIN-TESTAMENT-OF-MARY-facebook

Stop Looking

Stop looking out there for it. Big deal right? Say it as many times as you wish and still nobody wants to listen, because they are busy looking for it. So what is everyone looking outside for.  What is it that if you found it out there, it will allow you such joy and happiness, that your life would change?  Is it the relationship that excites you so much, you tell your friends that you are in love, then sooner or later, you announce you hate their guts. Is it the job you are looking for, and when you get the job, you are excited then you realize that it is like all the rest. Is it the new diet, body you want, then when you have it, you have to maintain it. Is it calling yourself spiritual and then realizing we are spiritual so there is no such thing as specialness.  What is it, that you will change you out here?  Can anything change you out here? I am asking you to look at it.  So if out here can’t change you, and the conditioned world wants you to go on a journey and find it, then where is it?  Nothing out here can bring you freedom, because if you are looking for it, then when you find it, you will be attached to it. Then it becomes another possession.  Another thing. Do you see?

So can you stop looking for it? Stop searching for it? Stop wanting it? Can you simply stop and allow awareness? The story of Buddha is our collective story. He gave up his riches, family, traditions, rituals, home, and everything to find everything. Same with Jesus. Can you give up the world to find it? How do you give something up, if you are looking for it.  Stop thinking about it.  When you stop thinking about, what ever it is, it will be attracted to you.  There is nothing to think about that isn’t already happening.  We have been conditioned in school to create problems, and solve them.  We are lost in the problem, forgetting that we created it. Stop thinking about it and you will see it is already done. You exist in the all of all.  Found that out. Live that. Get to know that and you will realize the conditional was the problem. ” says Robert Taylor.


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The Revolution Is A Happening Around the World

There is a movement happening on this planet can you feel it?  It is happening here in Los Angeles, to New York, to Turkey, Canada, Europe, China, and Belgium. It is a revolution.  A revolution you say? Where? What? There are people who have decided because of circumstances, unhappiness, misery, struggle, pain that this conditioned way of living is no longer possible. There must be another way.  This way only takes one thing, you to decide. You don’t need assurance, books, teachers, politics, tradition, rituals, family, or even friends to convince you. The discovery must be made by you and you alone. Sure you will fight it tooth and nail, you will resist, push against it, but where can you go, it is happening now.  Right now.  Your senses will not help except to help you connect.  Bring your baggage, stuff, whatever you wish to bring with you, I can assure you, it will help, and then you will have to leave it.  You can’t fight it. Your in it.

So you ask, “David how can I join in? What must I do?”  Well doing is not the way in. Stopping what you are doing is a good way to enter.   Close your eyes and see the the contradictions for what they are, contradictions.  See the fight inward.  See where the root of all life exists.  Come join in. It is not happening out there, although we believe in out there and out there will finally bring you in here. So cut the chase and come on in.  There is only acceptance here. Sorry there is no room for pride, fame, celebrity, because in here we are all equal. There is no judgement although you will be convinced there is a judge.  Be rest assured in your new found discovery that there isn’t. There actually is nothing going on. But it needs to be discovered by you. You are here to know yourself. That is true education, not reading the books, spiritual texts, bible, newspaper, schools, although they serve their purpose, this education is real and actual. It is happening now across the planet.  Don’t believe me, see for yourself. Come on.  Be a rebel with a cause.  Your cause is to be, to BE-CAUSE.

I can’t convince you of it. I mean I can, but you are a rebel. Rebels live outside and not inside the world. Look at Buddha, Jesus, and all the rest of them. The masters, the mystics, they lived outside the world view, and their message is still powerful. Your buildings crumble, your books are out dated, your history is manipulated, your politics deal with lies, greed, and they need you to be powerless.  I would like you to be in your power.  I desire you to look around and give up the fight with your brothers and sisters and stand as a unified group, a family.  The way to this revolution is inside. Help break the conditioned and conditions.  Stop listening to the world view and start hearing the view inside.

That view is inspiring, loving, forgiving, and serving. It is not powerless to others, to the world, to anything, it stands up for each other, and helps mother nature.  Are you going to keep fighting in the same way, and resisting, or will you STAND FOR PEACE and LOVE, after you finally go inside and see what that actually means. Stop falling prey to the fight, resistance, and delusion of the world.  STAND TALL AND SERVE.

This is the call, you are being called my brothers and sisters.  STAND FOR INCLUSION, not EXCLUSION.  We are all here for a reason.  The conditioned only works when we are against each other.  Lets work together for the common good.  Please find out what I am saying, by getting still and listen.  Stop fighting the same fight, we have been doing that years, and it hasn’t worked.  The time of waking is NOW. Decide NOW to turn in.  Join the inner revolution.  We are a family.

Join us around the world.  Stopping looking out and blaming, complaining, about them, those, whoever they are. Who cares? Start being who you are.  Who are you? I want you to find out.  I want you to find out on your own, and discover that you are here to embrace your light.  Embrace it.

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It’s The End Of The World As We Know It

As we continue down the path of self discovery, I remember the lyrics, “It’s the end of the world as we know it…”  and we enter this inner revolution within and begin to see the world as we once have known it, end and crumble, this can put many of us in a place of great uncertainty.  The death, the end of everything, the end of all attachments, everything gone, fallen away, and so here we are in the presence.  Call it what you will? But what you call it will change, but without anything to go too, anything to turn too, anything to identify with, all you know is now.  We are here, right here exploring what is, the actual, the real, its here that we end the fight, the division within, which is conflict and we stay with it , no matter what.  This is what WRESTLING WITH YOURSELF the blog is about. About you and I discovering that beyond it all, we are connected. Join me. Join me in the inner revolution. We have tried the outer and it has failed.

Can we enter together into a inner revolution? Can we together stand in it all, no matter what?  This type of practice goes beyond the mind, the body, and enters our heart.  Can you stand alone in stillness and trust in the certainty that life is a movement not a doing? That this movement when discovered will move mountains, move relationships, move health, move your finances, move your life in a way that cannot be described.  Can you sit in it like the middle of the hurricane and simply say YES? Can you? Are you ready to experience life as you have never known it? If so, then you must be willing to let go of everything, I mean everything, everybody, the past, and the future, you must take responsibility for the end of all you have created. All you have to say is, “I am ready.”

This is not a seeking, searching, a journey as the myth goes, but you must be able to drop it all, drop the drama, chaos, of what you think it is. Can you finally accept your life as it is?

We have great myths, traditions, rituals, schooling, books, to keep up the myth, but I want to know about who you are, beyond what you know.  You don’t have to travel somewhere, go to some guru, sit in a cave, and all the rest of it. We are simply discussing being with it all, no matter what, are you ready?

Yes we are experiencing the end of the world as we have once known it, not in the way in which you think, because thinking about will not help.  Are you ready for a revolt, not a revolt out here with others, but an inner revolution.  And uprising within.  This is between you. You can do this? Although you won’t be doing anything. You will be aware.  Stand in awareness and be present with the inner world, the outer world and know they are one.  Are you ready?  This is this the road less taken.

You have to give up all power to the world. You have to acknowledge that the world, people, places, memories have absolutely no power over you. End the seduction of the world. Let grace and love inside bring you home.  An inner revolution means that you have dominion over yourself, that you are free of everything, that you no longer believe in the world, no matter what it tells you, shows you, tries to push on you, no matter what, you must listen only to the stillness as your guide, and from there will come the most magical graceful insights. Are you ready for the end?

I feel like you are, I feel like that is how you found this blog, because you have been patiently awaiting this moment.  It is time, not time found in the world, but soul time.  Your soul has brought you here. Are you ready for a inner revolution? Because if you are ready, then this is how we will shift the world.  We will trust our inner connection and discover our strength together.  This is exciting.  I am excited.  Join me, join us around the world. As you connect to this inner revolution, you will discover your life expression, the gift that you are on this planet, and you will use it, without questioning, doubting it, or confusing it with others.

This is the end of competition, comparing, judging and all the rest of it. Are you ready?  Be willing to be willing. Join us.

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Yesterday I was writing something and wrote “unison”, which means: complete agreement, harmonizing exactly.  When I sat with it a little more, uni= one and son= son.  One son, it reminded me of the stories of Buddha and Jesus, which is the story of our lives. To live in complete agreement with the laws of the universe and when we do that we become our true nature.  We become the son and daughter of unconditional presence.  The mantra may be I AM ONE and guess what? You are.  

Can you imagine? Sit with this for second. I AM ONE WITH THE UNIVERSAL ONE. Or as Christians say, “I AM THAT I AM.” That is how powerful you are. You are here to create from that. The way in which you connect to the source of everything is to quiet and listen.  Now when I say be quiet and listen, you think about talking and shutting up.  I am suggesting quieting your mind and listening to the silence which already is present.  In that silence exists all you need. In fact, when we use words to describe love, wealth, creativity, abundance, etc…we really are talking about the same energy which is unconditional presence.  Its all one life.  Each of us is that life expressing fully. It doesn’t seem that way because the mind is trying its best to convince us that there is separation. When really there is no separation.  The fragmented mind is convinced of this. So the only block between you and everything is silence.  With silence there is no conditions, barriers, blocks, problems, situations, and so what are we really waiting for? 

If everything is happening already and this life has infinite possibilities then what is wrong with silence.  It is here that we heal, it is here where true riches lie, it is here where magic is, and the absolute, and yet very few seem to want to go there.  Jesus never over threw the Romans but he left a lasting impression.  By getting still like nature we begin to understand how amazing we really are. Judgment is a thought. Love is silent, fun, joy filled, wisdom, and sometimes forceful. The lesson here is sometimes we should just be quiet and listen.  

When we can listen to the silence and maintain it for the day, then we can hear the truth, inspiration, and all the non sense goes away.  So can you turn away from the world? Can you be still?  Can you listen to the silence? If you can, you will be on the road like Jesus, Buddha, and many mystics.  

Live a life in complete agreement with nature. Sounds cool right?  

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Love Is A Marathon, Not A Sprint

I had the wonderful opportunity about three years ago to run in the Los Angeles marathon. When training began it seemed overwhelming, but after talking to the coaches I was reassured that it would be okay. We started off with little runs, and then moved on the weekends to bigger runs. Before I trained for the marathon I started running about year out. I started with simply running one lap around the track, then two, then a mile. As I built my lungs up, I trusted my feelings to move me forward not my head. I realized early on that my head wanted everything now. It wanted a 3 hour time in the marathon, wanted to be noticed, wanted, wanted, wanted, well after evaluating the runs over time, I realized that this was my first marathon and found a comfortable time that would be realistic for me. I loved everyday running, somedays I felt really good and it was smooth, other days when I had to make bigger runs I realized they weren’t smooth but I still had training to do and did it.

I bring this up because love is a marathon, sometimes when people get into relationships they want the house, husband/wife, kids, dog. cars, and yet they don’t breath, grow, and learn with their partners and how they are in relationships, in fact they try sprinting and they tire out and move to the next relationship because they are exhausted, impatient, and in blame mode about the expectations their partners didn’t meet. But that isn’t love, we all know this and yet we get our pants in knot over love. Love is a marathon, meaning things come up, thing arise, and adjustments need to be made. How you handle the marathon of love is handle you handle your life. In a country with divorce, dropping lovers each week, speed dating, wanting it now, internet dating, quick fix society living, we miss that love is a marathon. Life is a marathon, not a sprint.

When I was training I was committed to the marathon, in relationship we are committed to the other, that means no matter what comes up, we will work with it, be a team, and explore the possibilities. If things came up in my training, I didn’t complain to others about it, I just adjusted to it and moved forward. In fact if I did mention it, guaranteed someone would quip, “Dude you are running a marathon, I couldn’t do that.” When you realize that love is marathon it allows you to enjoy everyday and live it fully, when love becomes a sprint you miss the point, we are learning to love and create in loving ways. That is a process of patience.

So relationships are based on softening up, being receptive, and enjoying, rather than the old paradigm of wanting, expecting, and running away from things. Many people in relationships with their self and another panic. Impatience is panic, like sprinting it is exhausting, tiring, and before you know it, you are dwelling on what used to be. There is no aliveness, newness, because sprinting is about getting to the next moment, a marathon is about enjoying. A world class marathoner quipped, “Americans are funny at marathons, they have their goals, times, lists, and they forget to have fun and enjoy the race, I wonder if they live life that way.”

Are you living to get to the next thing? Are you living to die? Living to die means that you don’t want to experience life fully, you are not involved fully. My hope is that you live love as a marathon and enjoy it. Give yourself a break each day and enjoy nature, friends, lovers, family, fully. Marriage isn’t awful, but it is when you need, want, sprint, push, hold on to everything, don’t want to learn/grow with yourself in the relationship and the other. A relationship is how you are perceiving the other and how you perceive yourself. Some people create the same relationships and are bummed they are not married, kids, house, etc…well guess what, who is the central character in the story, who needs to change, when I ran the marathon, it wasn’t about anyone else but how I was viewing myself. Same in love. Be gentle with yourself, love is a marathon, so enjoy each other and give each other break for goodness sakes. Your partner is doing what they know and so are you. Stop punishing them all the time, or criticizing them. Appreciate what, and who you have. Maybe it ends, maybe you continues on, but treat it as a marathon. There is no reason why we can’t live for 40, 50, years with someone, the only reason is because we don’t want to run the marathon, we want to run the sprint and live for the end.

In a relationship, appreciate rather then criticize, love rather than judge, hug, touch, and feel rather than hide, escape, and run. Be honest, and when your wrong admit it, and when your right shut up, don’t rub it in. I love this, “Just because your right doesn’t mean I am wrong.” Relationships like a marathon is a process of learning, growing, and appreciating life, please do. Stop venting about your 4 month, 2 year, 5 year relationships as though they were the difficult ones of your life. Maybe you simply need to run the marathon and stop sprinting to get things and wants met.

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