Wrestling with yourself is geared toward discovering the bigger truth.  In order to discover you, you must ask the right questions. You are on a QUEST FOR FREEDOM from everything, and so by asking the right questions in your quest to be free, you open up to more possibilities.  The grail you are looking for is within you and within your grasp. But like all quests you have to face the dragon, which in this case is the mind. Everyone must do this. Jesus faced the same thing in the wilderness with the devil for 40 days and 40 nights. The wilderness is the mind and the devil is the crazy thinking.  When you can over come the crazy thinking you will be free. Buddha did this through renouncing the world and the conditions, same concept.  The dream is the crazy thinking (Devil).

In order to overcome the crazy thoughts you must inquire into them, question them, see them for what they are.  Your sword is in the doubt, the questioning, the seeing, the stillness, the witness, the observer, and there in lies the grail (gold).

So in order to do “the work”, you must stop searching, seeking, and be with it. Yes stop where you are and begin to doubt your story, your script, your scripted life, characters, and begin to see it for what it is.

What if everything you believe, judge, criticize, condemn, was wrong? Can you accept the opposite of what you are resisting? Can you see that both points of view are opposites of the same coin.  That they are both right and wrong.  Are you ready to stop and be with it all. It up to you.

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The Nectar of Life

The nectar of life is the discovery of the unconditional as your life.  You are an expression of the unconditional life. The intellect would like me to feed you with more information and yet there is an aspect that knows this already.  The nectar is in the aspect that knows for certain.  The unconditional life which is now emerging on the planet has always been present but because of dogma, religion, and many groups it has seemed to be way up there somewhere. Some groups profess that you will see it when you die, others process you have to be cleansed of your already sinful ways, others groups suggest you were born in sin, and some others suggest that you must follow some leader.  My hope is that you discover the guru with in you and you first must stop discovering what you are not.  We waste a lot of energy looking out and trying to figure things out, out there. 

I have professed that there is only the unconditional life, and yet have you considered that your life is filled with conditions. Those conditions are breaking you open to who you are, but because you are comfortable with those conditions you have learned to call them home. By calling them home, you let others know they are who you are.  But these conditions are not who you are, they are experiences that have happened. 

To discover the unconditional life, you have to figure it out on your own. At first it will help to have a guide with you. Because you will have lots of questions.  Sit with unconditional. What is like to be unconditional? Why does it frighten you to open up? What are the conditions for?  Unconditional means it never stops, you can not even imagine what it would be like, because it just keeps moving bigger and bigger. People come, people go, that is the ebb and flow of life. Today I encourage you to discover your nectar, and be with yourself. Question your ideas, concepts, beliefs, and when you are questioning ask yourself, “What if my ideas, concepts, beliefs, judgment were are wrong?” . Sit with that. Challenge the smallness of you.  

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Invisible Realm- Mother Earth

We call it many names and no matter what you call it, it simply is beyond the name box that you label it.  Words box it up, beliefs are formed around it, religions, practices, and all for the sake of claiming it their own. Many people and organizations claim they know it better then the rest.  Thinking about it will not help, trying to understand it will not help, telling it what to do, telling it your plans, controlling it, own  it, and all the rest of it, simply will not do.  This realm knows all. It speaks gently, silently. It is aware of everything. Nobody is separate from it. NOBODY. Each will come home, each will come when they are ready. Some will not in this lifetime. But for each one, when the call comes back to its source.  Nonsense is over.  As it is found, a sense of AWE will be encountered. Words will be less, labels will fall away, expectations, rules, beliefs, judgement, condemning, gossip, will finally mean nothing. This discovery will open itself up. Comparison and competitiveness don’t exist.  The invisible realm only knows harmony and each of you has a purpose on this planet. So in the physical when the job, relationship, money, health, seem to crash…harmony is coming upon you.  Others will leave you, condemn you, put you down, kick you, behind your back be cruel, no worries, for the invisible is aligning you with the purpose. When the crash comes, the invisible needs you to listen.  Not react. Just listen and be with the grief, joy, feelings.  You are taken care of in this space.  It will seem long, but remember to forgive yourself and others, “they don’t know what they are doing.”  Let mother earth align us through her beautiful harmony. Surrender to harmony. Let her align you.

Spirit and Matter

Spirit and Matter

By David Matthew Brown

Q: I have a question about spirit and matter, what is the difference?

A: Lets dialogue about it. When you have this idea about spirit, spiritual things, and spiritual way of living and so forth…what does that bring up?

Q: Well the first thing that comes to mind is expansiveness, bigness…

A: Good, where is it…where is this expansiveness…. Is it there? Over there? Is it here?

Q: Well I would say that is everywhere.

A: So this thing that you call spirit is everywhere…correct? Am I hearing you correctly?

Q: Yes it is everywhere.

A: So what is it? The mind wants to figure it out. What is everywhere?

Q: Well God is everywhere. It is infinite.

A: God is everywhere and so everywhere is where God is.

Q: Yes. God constitutes everything and all space.

A: So according to your mind and this movement of mind…God is spirit…which would be everywhere…

Q: Yes this presence, which is higher in thinking…

A: So a presence, which is everywhere and yet higher, which would make one wonder if they were separate from everything…would it not? Are you separate from God?

Q: No I would say that I am not.

A: So there is consciousness and different levels of consciousness…is that what you are saying?

Q: Well yes there would be different levels of consciousness, God, spirit…

A: Right but God is everywhere right…so there is no place where God is not…correct?

Q: Yes.

A: So can there be any problems? It seems like there are different levels of God. That your problems open you up to the next level of God…

Q: Yes it moves you up the levels..

A: Have you moved up the ladder? Is there somewhere you wish to go?

Q: Yes I would like to get to enlightment?

A: Okay, you get there then what? You know it all and you have all the answers and the learning stops.

Q: I never saw it that way.

A: Again we come back to what is.  Enlightenment is a showy word that is over used by thinkers to achieve more and more. You have a rich man who is attached to money and power and fame and then you have the seeker who is attached to enlightment, power, and fame. Both lost and confused by the idea. Only a thought can divide itself in a conflict. In this case the conflict is God.  You have suggested God is everywhere, correct? And yet it appears that this God has levels to it. And that this God is keeping you in a place till you pass a test of some kind.  Right? So now this God is a concept of ideas to be believed in. Yet the idea has created a problem within itself.  Do you see? The idea suggests that in the future I will attain this thing, sometime. Yet there are other people who have attained this idea and understand it more.  So now you find yourself going to others to understand that which is present…now.  They call themselves gurus, priests, spiritual leaders, and still you listen to them as though they hold a key to something bigger than you. To save you from this “me”.  Which has divided itself against itself.  As they teach you, or you read books, you gain more intellect, and separate yourself from the consciousness that is now.  In order to understand God, you must understand what God is not.  You cannot find God in thought. Yet most religious traditions are based on thought. Thought divides itself into beliefs. Enlightenment is a term. That term has become an image for you. It will always be in the future.  Observe the image and feelings, when they come up. Don’t condemn them. Just allow them to be.

Q: So there is God?

A: (Laughs) You expect me to give the answer so you can move on with your life. You must want it as if you want the next breath.  Your breath is breathing you and you never question it, but if you were to question it, you would understand it.  Do see?

Q: So God is everywhere and is not this “me”.

A: Correct.

Q: So this “me” separates itself and becomes its own identity. An identity, which I call “me”.  But I am not this “me”. Yet when I observe it. I will understand the nature of God.

A: Good. Good start. So what are problems?

Q: Problems would be a conflict with something.

A: What is the conflict?

Q: Between what is real and unreal.

A: Right. This “me”, wants to be right, judge, complain, blame, lie, steal, be dishonest, and so forth. You must look at that. Because the very nature of “me” forms the second part of your question, “What is matter?’ Matter is formed by thought.

Q: Matter is formed by thought?

A: So what is matter? See we have to start with the process and move slowly. Not get ahead of our selves.

Q: Matter is physical, tangible…

A: Tangible.

Q: Yes tangible, you can feel it, smell it, touch it…

A: Okay so if this matter is tangible is it real?

Q: Well yes it is to me.  I can feel it.

A: So if you can feel it then it’s real?

Q: Yes.

A: It makes itself real because you see it and feel it? Is that what you are saying?

Q: Yes that sounds right.

A: So real to me is permanent, fixed, does this matter change in any way?

Q: Yes it changes form, feelings, senses, and age…

A: So it sounds unreal, impermanent, changing…

Q: Yes it does. Well it feels…

A: What feels?

Q: I feel.

A: Yes but how are you feeling? What are feelings?

Q: Feelings would be thoughts…

A: Okay so the thoughts seem to be changing right, so do your feelings change based on your thought about something. One minute you are slave to diet and the next you eat like a pig. What changed?

Q: My thought about the subject.

A: Good.

Q: So as my thoughts change, matter changes.

A: Yes. So is matter real?

Q: No. Either are these thoughts. But they appear to get my attention.

A: Not really.  You had to observe them and question them before they got your attention. Otherwise they would just keep taking action on anything and reacting to everything.

Q: Okay.

A: The only fact is what is happening now. Deal with it. Investigate it. Question it.  Be skeptical of it.  Forget about religion, organizations, politics, government, and etc question yourself, question the problem. It is work. But in order to change humanity, you must do it now.

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