Mother Mary Message

Dearest Children of Love, be collected in your hearts and still in the mind.  Be not afraid. Truth is the highest Light.  Truth is still, quiet, and has nothing to prove.  There is nothing to judge and nothing to concern yourself with. A child is quite a good listener and so you must be a quite a good listener.  A child is strong, powerful, and curious in love.  Do not feed them fear, and doubt. It is not real.  The idea and concept of love is not real either. LOVE IS ALL THERE IS. Love is beyond the body, mind, and can not be explained. But can be felt in the heart, a choice is made up in the mind, feel the heart. How does it resonate with the choice? Intuition is the hearts language. There is a difference, but feeling will help with this.  No child has every been judged. Truth is the highest light and light refers to a light body, when we find ourselves in the dark way we are heavy, burdened, confused, and it is always simple to come back, by feeling into the choice made.  Feel into and with it.  And keep choosing the light way. Be not afraid.  There is no such thing as loss. Continue to feel open and follow the shepherding of Love. Love is life and life is light and playful. If you choose to play in the darkness, that is okay too. It will bring you closer to Light.  Darkness, and Light are not meant to scare, but are one in the same. They are helping each other out.  Call on me when you need the love of the mother. Simply call on the divine mother for guidance from the heart. I love your hearts in Truth. I love when you speak Truth, love Truth. Trust in Truth. Stand in Truth.                                                                        o-COLM-TOIBIN-TESTAMENT-OF-MARY-facebook


Love yourself, Stop Beating yourself up…

Each of us has heard it at some point in our life, “love yourself, you are to hard on yourself.”  So you are thinking, how do I do that? Being gentle with yourself, will bring forth gentleness in the world. But most of us are not gentle with ourselves, in fact when I meet clients for the first time, you can tell where they are by their impatience. Most people just want a quick fix, band aid, mantra, healing, guru, or workshop to attend.  Just so they feel like they have done something. In my experience of impatience and working with impatience, the impatience is the result of an over used mind, taxed by worry, doubt, confusion, and made up stories. 

So the impatience with ourselves, the world, and others leads us down a path filled and riddled with expectations, wants, and needs which are laid out in front of us in all forms.

If right now, you are feeling restless, impatient, worried, or anxious, then I would invite you to be aware of the impatience now. Be aware of it, and as you are aware, you may notice the mind wildly creating a broken record of stories, and also, that the mind is beating you up with conclusions about yourself.  Just be aware. Nothing to change, or fix.   As you are aware, begin to focus on your breath, allow the breath to flow in and out without stopping, let it be constant, a constant flow.  Just be here, allowing all to be as it is.  You may notice that your mind slows, and the record slows down, and as you continue to breath, you may also notice that with no thoughts in the mind, your breath just breaths you with no stopping, but when you think, the breath stops.  So keep being aware of the breath and now be in the breath. Feeling the breath filling up every ounce of your lungs, letting the exhale be released.  Now breath. You may notice that you feel tired and that is okay.  You are leaving mind energy and coming into being. Through this short example of awareness, notice that when you are in the breath, you are in the absolute truth of who you are. 

Who you are needs no justification of itself. But the mind needs the story to continue.  The reason you sense this impatience about you and the reason you may beat yourself up, is because you forgot that what you were telling yourself wasn’t the truth.  The truth is impersonal and will be the same today, tomorrow, and yesterday.  So impatience is coming into to your life to allow the truth to come forward. Everything is perfectly aligned with the unconditional presence.  So you love yourself by bringing your awareness to what is happening now and the mind slows down.  When the mind slows down, then you will begin to gain confidence in the still point, and as this happens you will lose the influence of the mind to try and convince you that you are something else, or that there is something else going on.  You may have to read this a couple of times, but I encourage you to bring awareness to your life and discover who you are.  Please question this and see for yourself.  

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What You Seek, Seeks You

I have had the opportunity to sit with many individuals who are seeking to be something. Some are seeking a deeper understanding of spirit, some are seeking a better job or different job, some are seeking better health, and  list goes on. We are all seeking something.  Have you ever wondered what you are seeking? Or asked, what is seeking me right now?  We love opportunities to grow and be bigger than what we know. That is why when we aren’t seeking anything, we take what is happening in our lives and create problems where there is no problems what so ever.  So I ask you to be still now, simply ask yourself, “What am I seeking? What is seeking me right now?”, no need to find the answer, maybe an image comes forward, a memory, idea, just let it happen. Then write them out.  You will begin to discover that the very thing you thought you were seeking, has been seeking you.  

Since there is only light and light is energy, then light seeks more of itself. It has no limits or lack.  When we seek something, more then likely, we are ready to blast off into the unknown.  Something deep  inside you is willing to be willing to blast off and explore the far reaches of the light.  When we see light, and really look at it, we may say,” If this light is me, where is the past? future? and myself?” all things in which we hold so tightly too.  Well they simply don’t exist or some call them illusions, but big deal right? Because a teacher can only lead the student so far and then the student must find out what all the fuss is about.  Either there is only light or there isn’t.  The way in which we discover this is through seeking.  

For example, I had a conversation with someone who wanted to be a film maker.  He was excited too a make films and had a big vision.  Then came all the reasons in which that wasn’t possible. He told me about age, money, circumstance, life, etc…then I asked him, “Have you considered that this is already done?” He was baffled my question. So he explained his reasoning to me, this time much more literally and slowly as though I missed the story.  He said, “David I would love to be a filmmaker, but i missed the ship. I am old, my money situation sucks, still living in an apartment, and blah, blah.”  So I asked again,”Have you considered that this is already done?”  And then we both sat there in silence as he huffed and puffed.  

So I explained, here is light, as I pointed to a lamp in the room, “Do you see the light? Do you see it?” He shook his head yes. “Okay, this light is you. Explain where the problem is. You have told me with great excitement that you are old. And yet I am asking you to just breath and see the light. Not as some spiritual thing, just see it. Science and quantum physics have suggested that we are energy; if that is the case then this light is who we are. But we only see the physical, right? We aren’t conditioned to dwell in the light. We are conditioned to dwell in the senses and only see the physical world as real. Good.”

He sat there and I sat there for some time.  Then a burst of energy came out, “Okay, lets play your game. I am light lets say, this light, this light has no past, future, self, it is full as it is.  Now this light wants to experience being a filmmaker, and the light doesn’t know any problems, any past story, future, whatever, right David?”

I shook my head in agreement, “Okay. So this light is seeking to be a filmmaker, but its seeking to be it by going through the story of what it knows to discover what it doesn’t know.  So what it is seeking me right now?  Would be being a filmmaker.  So I am a filmmaker already. That makes sense and yet my find is like WHAT THE BEEP?”

I acknowledged his progress, “Good now you are seeing correctly.”

“Yes but what about the obstacles, struggle, stuff…”

“Your desire is a desire from the heart. The heart already knows that it is a filmmaker. That is why it is coming up now. You have everything you need to manifest it. Your mind will follow the hearts lead quicker. If the mind takes the lead then it has no foundation because the heart may not support it, do you see? We are not conditioned to follow our true desire, we are told desires are bad and to suppress them. As we suppress the desire, it manifests in other areas of our life.”

He then added, “So just act like it.”

“Nope that is not what I am suggesting.  What I am suggesting to you is that the mind acts, and acts up.  Little tantrums.  So the mind says, I will act like a filmmaker. The hearts desire only stands in I AM. I am a filmmaker. The  heart is affirmative, the mind when it wants something builds up fantasies about it and how much people will love it and fame will follow. The mind is only concerned with getting and building itself up.  The heart works in the complete opposite way, because it wants to play. It works from inspiration. So it is done in the heart already.  I AM A FILMMAKER.  Affirmative action or Truth action. This is the will of the universe, of God. Becoming one.”

“I believe it. It feels freeing to be a filmmaker, in fact a list of people who I can talk to have come to mind.”

“Perfect. Do you see how what you were seeking was seeking you? And that “a list of people came to your mind”, your heart feeds the mind. The heart thinks in intuition. So intuitively it knows who to see without all kinds of effort.  So yes you will run into to obstacles, but you will be able to manage them because it is your hearts calling.  We all have a heart calling. When you find it, affirm it, then you are it. And you become unstoppable. The heart can handle anything. Anything.”

“YES that is awesome.”





Acceptance is a fact. Without acceptance is denial. Denying the fact of which is actually happening now. With denial comes anger, conflict, negative emoting, and drama.  Acceptance means all is neutral. This is what I mean by being neutral. Everything is neutral on this planet. You may have agitation for a person. Now someone knows the person and doesn’t have any charge with them.  But it seems that you have agitation for the person.  Which means that the agitation is coming from you. No matter how they are acting or choosing to be, the agitation is coming from you.  Which means there is a lack of acceptance for them and there would seem to be a lack of acceptance for that part in you. Hence oneness.  So when the charge in you happens,  first acknowledge that you are not accepting right now.  Be with the charge, don’t change it, fix it, or run from it. This is the most difficult to get. If by trying to fix it, change it, or run from it, you may notice that you will be putting it on the other person, and expecting them to deal with your charge. That is irresponsibility. Just be with the charge happening now. As you let it be, it will fall away and then you will be able to manage yourself and the situation accordingly.  When you can accept another, then you will be able to respond accordingly, hence the word, response ability, the ability to respond. When you are present you have the ability to respond or react. Reaction is denial of the situation or person.  In order to gain an understanding of another and yourself, you must observe. Be the observer. Observe everything that is happening inside you and outside at the same time.  it is happening. If you find that you react to something, rather than respond, then you will be telling the story to everyone. The story that you should tell people is this, “I observed so and so, and because I can’t accept them and choose to deny them, I feel angry with myself, but it appears to be them I am angry with, but I realize as I tell you this that it is not them its me. So rather than deal with myself and the denial I have of the situation, I choose to tell you because I need someone to get angry with, will you join me.” Most of the time your friends will jump right in.

TODAY: I accept myself and all my parts.  When I feel a charge in me, I realize that it is my charge and take responsibility for it. Because the other person is just being in what they know. Amen

Zen Story: Is that So?

Is That So?

The Zen master Hakuin was praised by his neighbors as one living a pure life.

A beautiful Japanese girl whose parents owned a food store lived near him. Suddenly, without any warning, her parents discovered she was with child.

This made her parents very angry. She would not confess who the man was, but after much harassment at last named Hakuin.

In great anger the parents went to the master. “Is that so?” was all he would say.

When the child was born, the parents brought it to the Hakuin, who now was viewed as a pariah by the whole village. They demanded that he take care of the child since it was his responsibility. “Is that so?” Hakuin said calmly as he accepted the child.

A year later the girl-mother could stand it no longer. She told her parents the truth – that the real father of the child was a young man who worked in the fishmarket.

The mother and father of the girl at once went to Hakuin to ask his forgiveness, to apologize at length, and to get the child back again.

Hakuin was willing. In yielding the child, all he said was: “Is that so?”

As we move closer to our true nature, what is powerful about this story is the acceptance of what is. In a culture of fear, loathing, resentments, and distortions of the truth, this story illustrates the power of letting go of the self created. It also shows the power of truth. Lies will fall away from real truth. Nothing holds up to truth.  Lies keep telling the story in different ways. Truth has nothing to tell, nothing to defend, nothing to fight, nothing to prove, nothing, nothing, nothing.

To discover yourself is the road not taken. It takes great strength. Others will not like the decision. So it is up to you. Are you ready?


When we look at impatience, we begin to see that it is quite acceptable behavior. Impatience can be looked at as the root cause of many disorders.  When I am sitting with impatience I feel blind, scared, and it feels like a denial of the truth.  If we can understand the truth not in a personal way, but in a impersonal way then we may be able to grasp the nature of impatience.

In a simple way if you were to tell the truth, your body would relaxed, calm, and your mind would be the same. If you tell a lie, there is a anxious feeling, the mind is scared to be caught, stories are created about them, blame, complain, and other non-sense comes forward.  The lie is exclusive in nature, it excludes feelings, others, and is selfish.   I use the personal example, so we can see the nature of a bigger truth.  Truth itself, can’t be talked about, but it’s very essence is inclusion.  It includes everyone, unites, brings together, and loves.

The very nature of life is love. Now love is not divisive in nature, it is not combative, and we can see that through inquiry and investigation into love.  Most love is a story, image, that tends to be selfish in nature. Well nature isn’t selfish, its limitless. Take into consideration the different styles of plants, animals, people, stars, etc…and you will be amazed by the infinite nature of life. Everything seems to flow from this truth.  Each of us, whether we know it or not consciously have moments of AWE.  That AWE is in regards to a connection that is hard to express.

When we lose that connection to life, we become pre-occupied by ourselves, our problems, stories, doing etc… and we lose track of the whole. We become impatient.  Impatience is a burden, we are burdened with what is not, what should be, what isn’t happening, controlling others, threatening, greed, competition, comparing, and more non-sense.  The whole of humanity, the truth which is impersonal shares. Shares everything. And celebrates it own life through diversity.

So are you experience impatience? If you are it leads to disorder, disorders, addictions, habits, doings, same old, same old, there is no room for growth.  That is why it is important to uncover the truth in your life.  Not a truth told to you by an organization, religion, political movement, but through your own understanding of what life really is.  So investigate today the way in which impatience plays a part in your own discovery.

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